Historically Crazy... and Unconscious

I
Am
historically crazy and unconscious
with all this
can't fake it
or make it
and take it
and break through?

I
Am
historically crazy and histrionic
subsonic
am I broken?
or hoping?
or even open
to you?

the art I create is the life that I live is the hope that I give where foundations unsteady tip over and break the illusions that hold us the possessions that own us and you know you know this

I
Am
historically crazy and unconscious
unresponsive
is it stealing?
revealing?
or kneeling
to find truth?

I
Am
historically crazy and despondent
sardonic
will I chase it?
or face it?
erase it
and fall through?

the life I create with the art that I hate with the heart that I break where unsteady foundations cause me to stumble and fall through the life I forestall the obsessions that build me I hide from all